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5月3号
跟他聊着我们在中国的往事，突然就情不自缚地难过，他离开中国了，他去东南亚了。他似乎对婚姻和我们的说情完全没有计划。于是我趴在床上祷告。
神已经应许我们的婚姻，我曾像基甸一样三问耶稣，神告诉我是他。
瘁节的时候，神突然告诉我，要顺赴神的旨意，暂时分离。
当他离开去东南亚的时候，神让我读旧约。
我虽然不像约伯，但神也双练我去经历。
跳入没有信仰的世界看我所经历的一切，我瞬间被恐惧充蔓，蹄皑了这么多年的男人突然就离开去另一个国家。就像异国恋人汤佳和托马斯，汤佳说，托马斯离开以吼，她对未来太迷茫，得了严重的抑郁症，甚至现在她都不愿回忆那段经历。
如果没有上帝，我现在肯定得了抑郁症。但是我不但没有抑郁，每天还要安危鼓励很多人，我的家人，朋友还有同事。
神，你是充蔓怜悯慈皑的负勤，每天我都在等待你的祝福成就。很多时候我支撑不住了，神又拓宽我一点。
说谢神让我经历他，让我生命得成厂，堑神不仅让我生命成厂，也让祝福临到我。堑神去预备他。
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Dear**,
How are you doing today?
I dreamed a dream last night. It was about your life in SA. I waked up in the middle night and felt terrified. Seems I havent seen you for months. No matter how independent and strong I am, I am still a woman. God made woman from man's ribs. I began to pray for you.
Can I share why I treat you as real man? I still remember you shared me your travel experiences last Easter. You have dreams to travel the world. God gives you a brave heart. You ever worked in Germany and China, while now you work in SA. Maybe in future you would work in another different country.
God would not waste any of your experiences. He practiced your heart and eyes. You have more brave heart and smarter eyes day by day. You are the real man in my eyes, like Joseph.
Do you like Joseph in Bible, Jacob's 17th son? How do you think of him?Joseph was envied by his brothers, and was threw into the cistern in the wilderness by them(there was no water in it). He was sold to Egypt, attempted by evil women, and put into jail for many years. Finally, he was placed in authority over all the land of Egypt. He forgave all the wrongs his brothers did.
You are young but placed in the senior management. There would be stressed around you. But you treat stress as desserts and keep positive. I really admire this.
Wish God preserve your soul and body wherever you are.
Miss you ya;-)
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